Bitter Melon

Im back again and hopefully I will continue to speak to you.  We'll our move was a successful trip! Filled with much laughter, dancing, and driving! New Orleans was a blast!

Thats me with Panchito!








Texas took forever to get out of, really 2 days. I had no idea Texas was that big!  Someone said to me "The trip feels so much longer when its day 2 and your still in Texas"  We headed straight to San Diego after Texas! Spent a few days with my boyfriend's brother and his wife.  That was sweet! Then met up with our roommate Tommy! in Venice Beach! Awesome time in Venice well mainly at the Whole Foods there.  Finally, drive up home to Frisco! I absolutely love it here.  The weather is great! Its like NYC fall all the time. Windy and cool and sometimes very hott!.

I can definitely say I miss home.  All of my family is in Atl.  My boyfriend and I are the only ones here.  He's pretty much all I have here.  Its nice because I get to start my own family with him and build together.  Which is exactly what my intentions were but missing my family is still part of it.  Even though  we get into minor arguments, my love for him grows deeper.  We'll be together for a year in december! Its beautiful how loves comes when its unexpected! I wasn't looking for it but I desire it.

Its great to be in SF.  There's just so many things out here especially in health and spirituality.  Ive decided to join the Bnei Baruch Kabbalah Center. It's great there! I feel like Im home, spiritually.  Funny thing that I joined Bnei Baruch, coincidentally, my environment has gotten slightly hostile.  Not because of my boyfriend but our roommate and his company.  Our roommate brings this girl he's dating to spend who knows how many # of days with us without consenting us at all!  Its not like we would have been opposed to this she's a "nice" girl.   My home is my sanctuary, I dont want people there that I dont know are coming or know at all. I dont know what our roommate told her but she's gotten very comfortable in our home.  Its not your place to leave your shoes around in the kitchen nor your plugged hairdryer in the bathroom nor setting up your toiletries in our bathroom.  This may seem petty but we werent told how long she's staying over.  Quite honestly, if we were consented first, I wouldnt have minded her stay, if she truly needed one.  The thing is though, she says she's doesnt want to be in a relationship with our roommate and is ready to pack her bags and go anywhere.  Yet how is it that you move back to a city and not have a home stay in? or even consider staying at the place of the man you dont really want to be with? I really am working with my ego.  I may not like her because  maybe i see an ex quality of myself that i didnt like in her.  Maybe a territorial(ego) thing, I dont know her, why is she in my home.  I am as pleasant as can be.  If anyone is reading out there..help find a different perspective. Maybe things arent as cut and dry as i believe they are to be.